I am really stuggling. After reaching a loss of 42 pounds in March, the weight is creeping back on. It is very upsetting to me. Basically, I slacked off and quit being vigilant about what I was eating and how much I was exercising. Then last month I started binging again at night. Oy.
Two weeks ago, I rededicated myself and have starting writing down what I eat, drinking more water, and being more careful. I am starting to get back on track. I have also been to my support group two weeks in a row and have even trekked upstairs to the nurse to get weighed. Now, if I can just start exercising again. I guess if you are like me, you have to be vigilant every single day. How frustrating.
I am also frustrated with Ryan. I have been very careful to (hopefully) teach him good eating habits, but now he doesn't eat anything except a granola bar in the morning, a few little snacks, and a few bites of yogurt for supper. Maybe it's just a phase ... he is very muscular though. I just don't want him to get diabetic like me and most of my family.
The good news is that I still have very tight control over my diabetes. I am down to two pills a day, and hopefully at my next appoinment they will lower the dosage. I would just like to know what it is like to not to obsess about my weight fifty times a day or associate my weight with my self-worth.
Onward and upward! We are going to the Fair tomorrow, so that should be a challenge.
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Keep positive Marnie! You can do it. You are a wonderful person and mom so don't ever feel down about yourself or how you look.
We are also going to the fair tomorrow. I wanted to go so badly but now I'm freaking out about how hot it will be. We can't go until afternoon, it will be so toasty by then. I'm bringing TONS of water. Have fun!
Don't worry about Ryan eating enough. Sometimes kids at that age seem to live on air. He'll eat when he's hungry.
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